What a week What a week!

So I just got back on Friday from my trip in San Diego. I had a freaking blast.
I'm so excited to implement some of the things from the seminars into my daily work.
I'm hoping that once I get my bosses clientele up and running, she will help me build mine!
I think its only appropriate that I help her with hers first. I don't want her to think I'm a wasted investment.
I'm very self conscious about doing a  good job. I feel like since we got back, I've shown her I can do my job, and exceed her expectations.

As for being away from Kayden, it was tough. The only thing that helped was knowing he was with family, and being too exhausted from seminars to really have time to think about any of it. While I was gone, he had 3 more teeth start to pop through on the top of his mouth! He learned to flush the toilet, climb on the couch, and was super fussy.

I'm not sure what happened while I was gone, if its just the constant changes going on around him, or his teething, his age, or what, but he is throwing fits pretty much non stop. I'm starting to worry that something is wrong. I keep racking my brain trying to figure it out but I just don't know.
Not only that, but I don't know how to handle the fits. He is too young to understand time-out, and he isn't acting up enough for a spanking, and he is too young for that anyways. I don't know if I should try and baby him more, if he needs some extra loving from all the change, or if I should just ignore the fit. I'm having trouble sticking with just one thing.

Money is tight, and since that stupid mouse inhabited my kitchen its pretty much ruined my excitement to go in there. I feel like my kitchen is dirty no matter how much I clean it. I'm always paranoid a mouse is gonna run across my feet. I think I might have a slight phobia of mice. They seriously disgust me. I keep having dreams that they are crawling into bed with me. Its stressing me out. People think its not that big of a deal but it is to me. I literally get queasy and feel like I'm gonna pee my pants when I think about them. Not sure what to do.

Overall though, I am so happy with my life and those that are in it. I wouldn't change those parts of my life for anything :) Its been a good couple of weeks, hopefully the next few will be even better!

Still writing for English class ;)

So, I need to write some stuff for English :)
Kayden was up at 3 in the morning last night so I'm pretty tired today. But so far, it hasn't been a bad day. I leave on Saturday morning and I'm kind of starting to freak out. I don't know if I can emotionally handle leaving Kayden for that long. I mean, I have to, but I wish I could take him with me :(.
My mommas to infants/toddlers group got me fired up and awake this morning. The topic was to breastfeed or not to breastfeed. Anyone who knows me knows I am a huge breastfeeding advocate so I love putting my two sense in. I can't help myself ;)
I'm trying to stay busy this week. It feels like everything is going by so slow.

I've been thinking about changing my major to nursing. If I do, it will take less time, and probably have a much higher chance of me getting a good job if I do. I would only have to work 3-4 days a week! I think in the long run, even though being away from kayden now would be tough, it would financially and physically be better for both of us. Sacrifice some time now for more time in the future. I think I could really enjoy it too.
I hate being an adult and having to make difficult decisions in life.

Life is Good!

Life is going pretty good right now. Kayden is adjusting pretty well to his new daycare (better than I could've hoped!). He is growing and learning so much more every day! He's been patting and kissing his cousins a ton! He even pats his Aunt Kym's belly and gives it kisses! Its so cute! He is becoming a serious daddy's boy, but he still loves me so its ok! He is super cuddly lately, which I can't complain about! He is refusing to drink milk though, which is worrying me about his growth.

On a less happy but kind of happy note, I leave for San Diego for an entire week next weekend. Its bittersweet. While I am sooooo looking forward to the beach, sleeping as much as I want, seeing an old friend, and getting some "me" time, I have never been away from Kayden for more than 9 hours. He has never spent the night away from me and I'm like really freaking out. He will be with his daddy, so I know he will be OK, I'm just worried he will forget me, miss me, be super sad, or think I left him! He is my little angel! I can't bear to think he is hurting because I'm leaving him. Its not forever, but for me, it feels like a really long time! I know I need a little bit of a break, to recoup, but being away from him is so sad to me! I've never even gone out with friends because I miss him too much! I know it will be good for me work-wise, and physically, but emotionally, I just know it will be super duper hard. I will probably cry all night long the first night :(. At least I know he will be with his family, who loves him so much. He is mommy's little man, the #1 man in my life. I just hope he will be OK with me gone...